Life is getting tougher and tougher nowadays, perhaps its because i am sick. Work is begin to pile up and gosh its only the 2nd week. Went to the doctor again on tuesday and was given more medicine as condition worsen. Now i have to finish this course of antibotics.. oh medicine.. Please let me recover fast, there is so much i wanna do, swimming, tanning, soccer, jogging and every other thing under the sun.. but i just can't.
Oh.. hmmm but what i really want now is a nice javanese massage.. ahhh just how great would that be. Hai.. but all that money went to the evil doctor liao.. humph.. so anyone who is reading this care to donate some money to this poor little fellow here .. or maybe a massage would be great too..
Guess medicine is taking effects and is making me drowsy babblaring nonsense again, will go for my javanese massage in my dreams now .. nite nite
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Monday, August 23, 2004
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Getting really more and more pissed by this stupid sinus and cough of mine, it just never seems to recover.. everything else is going great, my LTB project mates are really efficient in their work, well at least till now. Hmm although not yet fully recover from my illness but i am going to jpoin a project mate of mine to a game of football, not really sure if we will get to play but will be trying our luck than.
Getting really really pissed with the Calculus as well, well but at least i managed to clear some of my doubts but there are other doubts arising. thinki gonna clear them with the prof tomorrow. Ding Qing, nice name isn't it, he is a PRC prof and every lesson i really have to battle with powerful accent of his, so powerful is his acccent that he managed to summon the sleepy monster and the stoning demon to attack me. aaarrrgghh and i have calculus tomorrow.. gotta go prepare my armour against those monster .. ciao
Getting really really pissed with the Calculus as well, well but at least i managed to clear some of my doubts but there are other doubts arising. thinki gonna clear them with the prof tomorrow. Ding Qing, nice name isn't it, he is a PRC prof and every lesson i really have to battle with powerful accent of his, so powerful is his acccent that he managed to summon the sleepy monster and the stoning demon to attack me. aaarrrgghh and i have calculus tomorrow.. gotta go prepare my armour against those monster .. ciao
My weekends
The weekend that just past wasn't too bad. Finally see a doctor, and have been taking medicine consistently, should be recovering soon. Watch Alien vs Predator on sat, was quite a lame show but not bad lar for all the actions the fightings.
after which talk cock and eat at Chua Chu Kang Park, my favourite place. Always go there quite late and its always a heavy meal there, if this continue i think i am going to put on weight in no time. Talking about weight, oh my, i haven't been joggin for the past 2 weeks, and i am sick now oh what could be worse... oh i am losing my tan too... shit i am begining to soundlike a ger.
Nothing special really happened, except our dear shuming is still strruggling over this ger, hey bro she's yours for sure. Go for it, all the best...
Guess i will end here going to school to buy books and some small project discussion. Ciao!
after which talk cock and eat at Chua Chu Kang Park, my favourite place. Always go there quite late and its always a heavy meal there, if this continue i think i am going to put on weight in no time. Talking about weight, oh my, i haven't been joggin for the past 2 weeks, and i am sick now oh what could be worse... oh i am losing my tan too... shit i am begining to soundlike a ger.
Nothing special really happened, except our dear shuming is still strruggling over this ger, hey bro she's yours for sure. Go for it, all the best...
Guess i will end here going to school to buy books and some small project discussion. Ciao!
Saturday, August 21, 2004
What the
Forgive and forget ?? Forgive than u will slowly forget. “Power is when u have the ability to destroy, u forgive.” Are these true, what lies among us are people who are good and bad or somewhere between the grey ares. Who are they than??
Life’s a struggle..sigh..
Was so touched that Jessudass my campmates came to look for me with my IC, tell me which camp can u see a friend come to u to pass u your ic and take ur 11B. He really did a lot for me and no words can really describe how thankful I am to him. Thank you Jessudass.
The past week in school was disastrous, I was almost sick everyday and force myself to school.. but guess will be seeing the doctor tomorrow .. cos really cannot take it liao… suffering suffering…
Best of all my Calculus prof was great a Chinese man and understanding his accent was tough moreover calculus is an area that I have absolutely no idea.
So tired so tired of life.. . . . . . when will my struggle end.. ??? how to let history remember me?? Rest well today cos tomorrow is another battle again.
Life’s a struggle..sigh..
Was so touched that Jessudass my campmates came to look for me with my IC, tell me which camp can u see a friend come to u to pass u your ic and take ur 11B. He really did a lot for me and no words can really describe how thankful I am to him. Thank you Jessudass.
The past week in school was disastrous, I was almost sick everyday and force myself to school.. but guess will be seeing the doctor tomorrow .. cos really cannot take it liao… suffering suffering…
Best of all my Calculus prof was great a Chinese man and understanding his accent was tough moreover calculus is an area that I have absolutely no idea.
So tired so tired of life.. . . . . . when will my struggle end.. ??? how to let history remember me?? Rest well today cos tomorrow is another battle again.
Monday, August 16, 2004
Sunday, August 15, 2004
What will come will come
It was almost a week since I last post my blog. Many things happened, come and go. Went for my school CCA day, camp and Convocation, was damm tired after these series of events.
Well the CCA day was known as VIVACE 2004, hmm what did we do?? Ok had some talks on referencing for projects, than met some more new members of the orientation grp. After which we proceed to look at the various CCA booth that was set up and take the goodies bag for POW WOW camp.
Pow wow camp lasted 3 days, and during this 3 days it really got me to know my sch better, how to go about from places to places how the people are like etc etc. I was also on very good terms with this guy, Tim. Maybe because we share the same interest, talking cock. He is a really fun and interesting guy and certainly had a way with girls, unlike me who is really girl-shy. We also did a lot of things like playing some team bonding games, mystery hunt, tele-matches, float construction and fright night etc etc.
I wonder if I am being crappy but I begin to see thing from the other side. Yes we must be outspoken, let your point of view be known, but I finally see that ‘too many cooks might really spoil the soup. Everyone wants to be heard. Everyone wants to be in the limelight but that will only result in nothing being completed.
I was quiet which was something unexpected, I slack and even try to siam some work that I would not in the past. I see my poly self in others and understand that a few facts.
“Know when to stop”
“Too many cook spoil the soup”
“To obtain something not all objections can be adhere to”
“The Silly’s silly, the smart’s silly and the silly’s smart”
Convocation is an opening ceremony for freshies like me embarking on our first, nothing was wrong except that my emotional instinct get better of me when I see scholars getting awards. If there is a scholar why not me? If there is someone better, can’t it be me? However regret makes no point, I can only try to do my best in my studies and get what I want.
Met dong and hua for dinner later at katong for laksa. Hmm… so nice it was like so long since I had katong laksa. I met up with another frd of mine later on my way back..
Well lotsa things happened and i really don know how to put them to words.....
what is right ?
what is wrong?
what are we now?
what is she thinging now ?
I am all bogus for answer, i am lost, i hate it where it comes to game of the hearts, cos i am bad at it. sigh... lets hoped that answers will come by and move on.. i got a degree to catch ...
Well the CCA day was known as VIVACE 2004, hmm what did we do?? Ok had some talks on referencing for projects, than met some more new members of the orientation grp. After which we proceed to look at the various CCA booth that was set up and take the goodies bag for POW WOW camp.
Pow wow camp lasted 3 days, and during this 3 days it really got me to know my sch better, how to go about from places to places how the people are like etc etc. I was also on very good terms with this guy, Tim. Maybe because we share the same interest, talking cock. He is a really fun and interesting guy and certainly had a way with girls, unlike me who is really girl-shy. We also did a lot of things like playing some team bonding games, mystery hunt, tele-matches, float construction and fright night etc etc.
I wonder if I am being crappy but I begin to see thing from the other side. Yes we must be outspoken, let your point of view be known, but I finally see that ‘too many cooks might really spoil the soup. Everyone wants to be heard. Everyone wants to be in the limelight but that will only result in nothing being completed.
I was quiet which was something unexpected, I slack and even try to siam some work that I would not in the past. I see my poly self in others and understand that a few facts.
“Know when to stop”
“Too many cook spoil the soup”
“To obtain something not all objections can be adhere to”
“The Silly’s silly, the smart’s silly and the silly’s smart”
Convocation is an opening ceremony for freshies like me embarking on our first, nothing was wrong except that my emotional instinct get better of me when I see scholars getting awards. If there is a scholar why not me? If there is someone better, can’t it be me? However regret makes no point, I can only try to do my best in my studies and get what I want.
Met dong and hua for dinner later at katong for laksa. Hmm… so nice it was like so long since I had katong laksa. I met up with another frd of mine later on my way back..
Well lotsa things happened and i really don know how to put them to words.....
what is right ?
what is wrong?
what are we now?
what is she thinging now ?
I am all bogus for answer, i am lost, i hate it where it comes to game of the hearts, cos i am bad at it. sigh... lets hoped that answers will come by and move on.. i got a degree to catch ...
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
The Return of Freedom
Well today is my official disruption date, yeah freedom...
but too bad I cannot get my pink IC yet ...
Went for sch orientation today. Wonder why they call it VIVACE 2004... Anyway I signed up Extremist.. Some grp of some series of interesting sports like canoeing, diving, trekking and skiing. Also sign up for table tennis and soccer but for the recreational team only, nowadays I am not really into competitive stuff...Wonder why..?
Later the day Hua called was wanting to meet at night for coffee, was telling him that I can only meet later as I need to pack for camp and in the end, well as usual offended by what he said . Lecturing me for doing last min things, perhaps I just cannot have any comments from him. He should learn to understand and appreciate the things from another person position b4 making a comment sometimes.. Just like the other day the Targus bag, when they gave me he was telling me that I gave him hints to ask him get it for me.. If I hav to resort to dropping hints do u think I would drop hint to someone who have to borrow money from me every month... Just something to think about. Hua do u know that a couple of people like my sis and mom and my buddy wanted to get that bag for me, and I told them to keep the money for their own use.. Sometimes when u make a comment think of what degree of damaged it will result. Yes I do appreciate the act of giving me that surprise but with the comments I think the bag is already worthless and what frds or we than.. don wish to dwell on it, sometimes but I cant.
Although sometimes I really cannot stand hua, but he got his strength as well. Something that I really like and would hoped to achieve he can forgive and forget easily and fast sometimes how I really hoped to be like him. Sometimes to be honest we are a bit harsh to him though but he wasn't really bother by it... wonder why again..
Fetch mom back just now and was talking abt Dad, wonder why again why is he my dad? Life's a struggle and i cannot forsee when will the next struggle come again, when i can get of this hole. Well gotta end here, meeting Hua and Dong for coffee.
but too bad I cannot get my pink IC yet ...
Went for sch orientation today. Wonder why they call it VIVACE 2004... Anyway I signed up Extremist.. Some grp of some series of interesting sports like canoeing, diving, trekking and skiing. Also sign up for table tennis and soccer but for the recreational team only, nowadays I am not really into competitive stuff...Wonder why..?
Later the day Hua called was wanting to meet at night for coffee, was telling him that I can only meet later as I need to pack for camp and in the end, well as usual offended by what he said . Lecturing me for doing last min things, perhaps I just cannot have any comments from him. He should learn to understand and appreciate the things from another person position b4 making a comment sometimes.. Just like the other day the Targus bag, when they gave me he was telling me that I gave him hints to ask him get it for me.. If I hav to resort to dropping hints do u think I would drop hint to someone who have to borrow money from me every month... Just something to think about. Hua do u know that a couple of people like my sis and mom and my buddy wanted to get that bag for me, and I told them to keep the money for their own use.. Sometimes when u make a comment think of what degree of damaged it will result. Yes I do appreciate the act of giving me that surprise but with the comments I think the bag is already worthless and what frds or we than.. don wish to dwell on it, sometimes but I cant.
Although sometimes I really cannot stand hua, but he got his strength as well. Something that I really like and would hoped to achieve he can forgive and forget easily and fast sometimes how I really hoped to be like him. Sometimes to be honest we are a bit harsh to him though but he wasn't really bother by it... wonder why again..
Fetch mom back just now and was talking abt Dad, wonder why again why is he my dad? Life's a struggle and i cannot forsee when will the next struggle come again, when i can get of this hole. Well gotta end here, meeting Hua and Dong for coffee.
Pre Post National Day
well yesterday 8th of aug was the best day. I must really thank my grp of pal who really cheer up my day.
Dongneng, shuming, hua and wenxiang came to my work place and they brought me presents, A targus bag shared by shu, hua and xiang and Dongneng aka Christ bought me a DKNY watch, very classical looking. I really like the Targus bag, was planning to buy it with my last pay from SAF or maybe next month. Thanks for everything but was a bit pissed when u guys left so early to avoid hmm.. u know who...
but seriously don spend buying so expensive gifts for me again.. until we finally come to work. Money are hard earned dun spend them like that and these are things that i can do without, basic needs before luxury ones remember..
I would like to buy them dinner not a very extragant one but maybe a simple meal as i am really hard up now, it the companionship that i appreciate than the gifts. we are frds so many many years, to be honest i am very lonely, very lonely inside. No ger, family struggles and financial difficulties are killing me sometimes. even when i am trying to concentrate to type my blog well they are still outside killing each other outside.. kekekekekkee what a joke my family is..sigh...
Than its KTV with joey, hua and weixian but i am really tired so didnt talk much and left at 1 plus still have to work lar.
Than its 9 Aug, well today, National day. wasnt very energetic though but still find working enjoyable. Well was having this funny tendencyto glance at the 2 pretty chief cashiers, seems rather young, but u know its marcus here u have got, i didnt speak to them but well i talked quite a lot with my fellow colleagues.. Yah during my peroid of work also saw YuFen.
YUfen, this person was my first girlfriend, the whole thing, my life at that pt, seems so amusing to me now. She is working as chief cashier as well, got talk but didn't ask abt the 2 gers.. (so pals dont tease me). In fact i chatted with her several times and quite a long conversation sometimes and one interesting thing is that I did not even ask for her contact number, perhaps she was meant ot be a lost frd.
The whole working experience that i had talked about was inspiring to me because of this on person, Tay Lai Hock, the event director. He speaks with firm assertions, confident, amusing , encouraging and at the same time filled with PASSION. Chatted with him after work when getting my pay, and he was telling me about all that he had done, how i can approach him if i need to get ans to my qns as I told him that i am always full of questions.
hmm a passionate man and living his life to the fullest, and hold a vast amount of knowledge. After talking to him, and the whole working period, my frds, my memories, my family, my almost everything, I think i had found myself. Just like a dying plant, who had found the courage to survive, to face the truth and accept it with passion. PASSION i kept hearing this word over and over ffrom frds sch, him.. etc etc... very lost now also cos many thoughts are running in my head.
Yearning perfection, had passion now, and am emotional at times. Emotion corrupts progress and passion may not be perfect. To forgive means accepting the faults and and forget worsen it. but the strength to forgive is power greater than the to destroy.
and forgeting make life happier. Solve my puzzle will ya'..
thankyou blogspot u are my board of nonsense and
Pls if any of my frd who happened to read this pls note that this was typed when i am feeling sick, feverish, drowsy with weak limbs and lotsa of wild thoughts going about pls do not think that i am psycho or anything k thanks.
Dongneng, shuming, hua and wenxiang came to my work place and they brought me presents, A targus bag shared by shu, hua and xiang and Dongneng aka Christ bought me a DKNY watch, very classical looking. I really like the Targus bag, was planning to buy it with my last pay from SAF or maybe next month. Thanks for everything but was a bit pissed when u guys left so early to avoid hmm.. u know who...
but seriously don spend buying so expensive gifts for me again.. until we finally come to work. Money are hard earned dun spend them like that and these are things that i can do without, basic needs before luxury ones remember..
I would like to buy them dinner not a very extragant one but maybe a simple meal as i am really hard up now, it the companionship that i appreciate than the gifts. we are frds so many many years, to be honest i am very lonely, very lonely inside. No ger, family struggles and financial difficulties are killing me sometimes. even when i am trying to concentrate to type my blog well they are still outside killing each other outside.. kekekekekkee what a joke my family is..sigh...
Than its KTV with joey, hua and weixian but i am really tired so didnt talk much and left at 1 plus still have to work lar.
Than its 9 Aug, well today, National day. wasnt very energetic though but still find working enjoyable. Well was having this funny tendencyto glance at the 2 pretty chief cashiers, seems rather young, but u know its marcus here u have got, i didnt speak to them but well i talked quite a lot with my fellow colleagues.. Yah during my peroid of work also saw YuFen.
YUfen, this person was my first girlfriend, the whole thing, my life at that pt, seems so amusing to me now. She is working as chief cashier as well, got talk but didn't ask abt the 2 gers.. (so pals dont tease me). In fact i chatted with her several times and quite a long conversation sometimes and one interesting thing is that I did not even ask for her contact number, perhaps she was meant ot be a lost frd.
The whole working experience that i had talked about was inspiring to me because of this on person, Tay Lai Hock, the event director. He speaks with firm assertions, confident, amusing , encouraging and at the same time filled with PASSION. Chatted with him after work when getting my pay, and he was telling me about all that he had done, how i can approach him if i need to get ans to my qns as I told him that i am always full of questions.
hmm a passionate man and living his life to the fullest, and hold a vast amount of knowledge. After talking to him, and the whole working period, my frds, my memories, my family, my almost everything, I think i had found myself. Just like a dying plant, who had found the courage to survive, to face the truth and accept it with passion. PASSION i kept hearing this word over and over ffrom frds sch, him.. etc etc... very lost now also cos many thoughts are running in my head.
Yearning perfection, had passion now, and am emotional at times. Emotion corrupts progress and passion may not be perfect. To forgive means accepting the faults and and forget worsen it. but the strength to forgive is power greater than the to destroy.
and forgeting make life happier. Solve my puzzle will ya'..
thankyou blogspot u are my board of nonsense and
Pls if any of my frd who happened to read this pls note that this was typed when i am feeling sick, feverish, drowsy with weak limbs and lotsa of wild thoughts going about pls do not think that i am psycho or anything k thanks.
Sunday, August 08, 2004
Working me
Ahhh.. So nice to be finally back to my fav seat in front of my com again. Woo have been workign my ass off at work, i dont really know what got into me but i am like damm onz working.. despite every one is all weary and tired out. CAn't remember the last time i was so onz.. perhaps its because of fading memeories.. and old age...wawhahhaa..
Hmm so what happened at the work place? well got to know a guy who is army still interesting fellow and also know these few cute gers and one actually look like a ger in my poly. She look like shevonne..keekee but smaller frame. . . (pals and buddies who might be reading pls, its impossible ) another one that left a deep impression is this ger I called her miss drunk, cos she speaks as though she's drunk. Quite cute looks like my neighbour from far. (and i repeat myself friends and buddies, impossible) and best of all these 2 gers are 2 yrs older and a year older than me respectively. Wonder why but i always find older gers attractive.
Many things are runnign wildly in my head and my body is tired, maybe thats all for today, Gd night blogger.
Hmm so what happened at the work place? well got to know a guy who is army still interesting fellow and also know these few cute gers and one actually look like a ger in my poly. She look like shevonne..keekee but smaller frame. . . (pals and buddies who might be reading pls, its impossible ) another one that left a deep impression is this ger I called her miss drunk, cos she speaks as though she's drunk. Quite cute looks like my neighbour from far. (and i repeat myself friends and buddies, impossible) and best of all these 2 gers are 2 yrs older and a year older than me respectively. Wonder why but i always find older gers attractive.
Many things are runnign wildly in my head and my body is tired, maybe thats all for today, Gd night blogger.
Friday, August 06, 2004
My life, my story.
Well good day Mr Blog, it was another sleeplees night last night, which is no longer special to me, only hoped that it would not affect me so badly when school starts.
Woke up at 0900 promise to send my beloved meimei to sch, but was reallly too tired and went back to sleep as she said that she will go by herself. Turn left, turn right and I finally got off from evil tired monster and got out of my bed 45mins later, landing right into the hands of my computer.. all these monster in my room..kekek..
Spend the whole morning waiting for my buddy to call to meet her as we plan to go KTV and shopping. I am really bored and stuck to my com which i think is very unhealthy, so thought that an outing might be gd, but our dear mae ling gave me a pigeon( oh great)
Desperate to go out I meet up with the god of dogs at Bugis for lunch and we had Yoshinnoya, hmm delicious..
Gals seems to be everywhere, and while we were lunching, I am like surrounded by gers.. actually i wasn't so disturb until jiahua drop his tail again. Can make it one also bio cannot make it one also bio. Hua ah hua have some backbone lar, pui one san one u everything also can sometimes i am really so pissed u know. See until like the eyes also going to drop into ur bowl like that wau lau eh.
Watched the village today as well at Bugis, but I am like damm pissed kiddos are everywhere , sec sch children, cannot even enjoy the atmosphere in the threatre .. kiddos there laughing screaming, telling story to each others, sprouting vulgarities, WTF felt like shouting out in the cinema at several point. CAn't imagine how the scenario will be like if I were to stand up and start my inexhaustive vocabulary of higher hokkien vulgarities.. i think the threatre will go dead silence or maybe the ticket uncle will chase me out ..hahahhaaa....
However that wasn't the climax, our dear hua followed up with his own version of the story and comments, with these i almost bit my tongue and die in the cinema...
Brought mummy to see this chinese physician, for her injured finger, well hoped that she can learn to take care of herself more, i can't always be there for everyone.
Had dinner with hua again, gave him some mollies as well for his almost empty fish tank. Sometimes i really sympathise with him in the situation that he had to be in, however he always knows how to look at the light side of things. This is one of his weakness as well as his strength sometimes i hoped i could just take things easier and not pre-occupied myself with so much what i need to achieve.
Watch Shrek 2 and was laughing my head off however i only downloaded the first half of the show, any kind soul with the 2nd disc could u kindly send it to me, thanks.
Than my good old friend called, Shuming aka RAyz. Well this is one great chap around, although very shy. One of the most sincere frds that I had. Well he had some problems with a girl. A girl he likes, maybe he should learn to be less ger shy, I mean he is the most patient man i hav ever seen, never even blow up and can still be happily laughing despite losing lotsa, lotsa money in football. Unlike me, so bad always scould Hua..kekek.. just want to tell u Rayz if u ever like something grab it and not lose it, i really hoped to see u with her. I think u guys are a great match, honest, i swear to it.
Back to myself, suddenly felt lonely again, seriously lonely. Sigh .. no target, no money, no achievement...
but... just a few more bear with it ok, Marcus, just bear with it, tied thru this hard period and there you will be enjoying the pot of goal at the end of the rainbow.
Every fall makes me stronger, every push makes me repel harder, wait for me to prove my worth..
Woke up at 0900 promise to send my beloved meimei to sch, but was reallly too tired and went back to sleep as she said that she will go by herself. Turn left, turn right and I finally got off from evil tired monster and got out of my bed 45mins later, landing right into the hands of my computer.. all these monster in my room..kekek..
Spend the whole morning waiting for my buddy to call to meet her as we plan to go KTV and shopping. I am really bored and stuck to my com which i think is very unhealthy, so thought that an outing might be gd, but our dear mae ling gave me a pigeon( oh great)
Desperate to go out I meet up with the god of dogs at Bugis for lunch and we had Yoshinnoya, hmm delicious..
Gals seems to be everywhere, and while we were lunching, I am like surrounded by gers.. actually i wasn't so disturb until jiahua drop his tail again. Can make it one also bio cannot make it one also bio. Hua ah hua have some backbone lar, pui one san one u everything also can sometimes i am really so pissed u know. See until like the eyes also going to drop into ur bowl like that wau lau eh.
Watched the village today as well at Bugis, but I am like damm pissed kiddos are everywhere , sec sch children, cannot even enjoy the atmosphere in the threatre .. kiddos there laughing screaming, telling story to each others, sprouting vulgarities, WTF felt like shouting out in the cinema at several point. CAn't imagine how the scenario will be like if I were to stand up and start my inexhaustive vocabulary of higher hokkien vulgarities.. i think the threatre will go dead silence or maybe the ticket uncle will chase me out ..hahahhaaa....
However that wasn't the climax, our dear hua followed up with his own version of the story and comments, with these i almost bit my tongue and die in the cinema...
Brought mummy to see this chinese physician, for her injured finger, well hoped that she can learn to take care of herself more, i can't always be there for everyone.
Had dinner with hua again, gave him some mollies as well for his almost empty fish tank. Sometimes i really sympathise with him in the situation that he had to be in, however he always knows how to look at the light side of things. This is one of his weakness as well as his strength sometimes i hoped i could just take things easier and not pre-occupied myself with so much what i need to achieve.
Watch Shrek 2 and was laughing my head off however i only downloaded the first half of the show, any kind soul with the 2nd disc could u kindly send it to me, thanks.
Than my good old friend called, Shuming aka RAyz. Well this is one great chap around, although very shy. One of the most sincere frds that I had. Well he had some problems with a girl. A girl he likes, maybe he should learn to be less ger shy, I mean he is the most patient man i hav ever seen, never even blow up and can still be happily laughing despite losing lotsa, lotsa money in football. Unlike me, so bad always scould Hua..kekek.. just want to tell u Rayz if u ever like something grab it and not lose it, i really hoped to see u with her. I think u guys are a great match, honest, i swear to it.
Back to myself, suddenly felt lonely again, seriously lonely. Sigh .. no target, no money, no achievement...
but... just a few more bear with it ok, Marcus, just bear with it, tied thru this hard period and there you will be enjoying the pot of goal at the end of the rainbow.
Every fall makes me stronger, every push makes me repel harder, wait for me to prove my worth..
Thursday, August 05, 2004
My trip to SMU
Well it was another dreamless night for me last night and as usualI got problems falling asleep..
I suddenly realised that my caffine addiction is getting a bit out of hand ... hmm time to curb liao.
Woke up 1130 wanted to go Nokia care to repair phone but it turns out alrite again.. same lousy phone.. sigh .. the same thing always happen.. when u hav the money nothing goes wrong, when u are down with financial difficulties that is when all the problems star flowing in like free flow beer..
Had my fav. chicken rice down stair and vvvooommmppp my way to sch..
As i travel down Bukit Timah many memories were triggered, I passed by my primary sch, Joanne's place than NP after which the long stretch of road that lead all the way straight to my 2nd soon, SMU.
Maybe I'm emotional, I felt lonely but I'm alone for over 2 yrs alraeady what, what loneliness is there to be. Vision start coming in fast and furious;
I suddenly realised that my caffine addiction is getting a bit out of hand ... hmm time to curb liao.
Woke up 1130 wanted to go Nokia care to repair phone but it turns out alrite again.. same lousy phone.. sigh .. the same thing always happen.. when u hav the money nothing goes wrong, when u are down with financial difficulties that is when all the problems star flowing in like free flow beer..
Had my fav. chicken rice down stair and vvvooommmppp my way to sch..
As i travel down Bukit Timah many memories were triggered, I passed by my primary sch, Joanne's place than NP after which the long stretch of road that lead all the way straight to my 2nd soon, SMU.
Maybe I'm emotional, I felt lonely but I'm alone for over 2 yrs alraeady what, what loneliness is there to be. Vision start coming in fast and furious;
- my first trip to SMU with Joanne and my than newly acquired Phantom, how i squeezed thru the jam, broken someone's side mirror, quarrel with her about that, how I drove off after reaching SMU, how i make a few circles and go back to look for her again. Though angry but to think back I would have been a happier person with her around as she was the person I really like, really like. She was like a dream come true..
- the thai restaurant next to SMU, the place where i make myself a fool infront of her, can't take tom yam soup but say can in the end its was all sweaty for me who couldn't really take hot stuff. yah and the desserts there so nice.. hmm..
by than my mind was so filled with her that i didnt realise my eyes are actually brimming with tears, am I sad or am I glad( i really dont known) but i cannot cry, though i was in my full face helmet, where no one can see. I must never drop another tear for anyone or anything
Upon reaching school, well nothing interesting, perhaps just some cute babes walkign around and like what i always tell my frds, and yes singapore girls are improving aren't they. (Girls aren't u?)
Academic briefing was up next, well my passion for studying just suddenly came back to me, I want a double degree for myself, or at least a double major. Mummy, I want you to be proud of me. I want to show you, that I never let you down. It was right for u to keep me, I was a champion swimmer 22 yrs back, and I will prove my worth again. kekeke .. but Mummy I loved you.
than its time again for the lazy evening with a economical dinner, wanted to jog but got no company and was sort of tired to jog alone today, so its a rest day.
Hua also call me ..kekek finally ah he return the money he owe me yipppeee.. can gamble liao lor.. break the curse of the goddess of dogs liao wahahwhahaha..
Well blogger no pics for ya today ..and thats all for today gonna go watch vcd liao ..
Guten nachtes
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
Blog Spot in the making
Today, 03 Aug marks the opening of my blog. I have not much to say for a start. but perhaps the series of photo graphs would recap what i have been doing for the whole of leave clearing period.
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