Breaking the entanglement

Its 11.02am as shown on my com, when I am writing this blog. It seems like its been years since I have a laid back Saturday. Had breakfast with mummy in the morning, some grocery shopping and my second cup of coffee for the day is right next to me, beside my com, just like how it was in the past. The only change might be the colour of my com, and perhaps my waistline; have been putting on weight.

Just had a session of town gazing the bachelor cows yesterday, we roam the streets from the national library to the Funan, Shaw Towers, Liang Seah and Bugis. Its seems like it was yesterday where we just left secondary school. Memories was all that was left. Sometimes, how I wished that we could have pass the “O” levels all together, moving on to Polytechnic at the same time and perhaps even the same polytechnic. Enlist at the same time and perhaps going back to school together again. There seems to be a gap between us now and it seems like we cannot really hang out together like how it was in the past. Coupled with the development of Zeph Designers, work seems to be never ending, and problems; issues are multiplying faster than i can catch my breath. I sense a change in myself, perhaps not as victorious as before, but then I still don’t quite the feeling of losing. I still wanna excel but I have learned to understand that sometimes losing might bring you another level higher. Moving forward doesn’t mean succeeding all the time. I have also learned to laugh at my fault or mistake that are made, why, because when its done its done, there is nothing u can do to reverse it. Laughing over it might in some way lighten your mood, and prepare you better for the problem you have created. But then again, it is definitely better to have avoid that potential tripping stone right from the beginning.

What I really hope now is to complete my education as soon as possible and move on to my career. I have waited long enough to break the entanglements that have held me up for years. I really really really really hope to pass on tis few years smoothly, transiting into my career, working out my beautiful life.

I want what I wanted right from the very beginning.

My own apartment, my own car, career, tube amplifier, high end speakers, designer furniture , a big and exciting sport bike (for special occasion with my girlfriend) family and perhaps my own children, children bless with a happy family and no worries.

Breaking my entanglement………..

Darlies

Its been a long and tiring week for me. Especially after sorting out the project work with my MFI project mates. All I can say this that that was an exceptional working experience, which I can do without in the future and will try by all means to avoid it. I don’t mind listening to a second opinion or even following the group in working on something, but I find it really difficult to lead yourself to jump off the cliff. This is the first time, I worked with a grp where the slides for presentation is only ready 15mins before the presentation, and during the class its still changing. Its not that everyone is busy or tied down by other work, but rather no one bothers to meet up. If u think I haven’t try to meet them up, then think again, an email and phonecall everyday asking for the assigned work but no one do them and no one bothers to meet. “Oh I am very busy with other work” or “I am in the hospital” or “I am sick” for a consecutive 8 weeks and to me that’s a record. I would apply for leave of absence if I have to be sick or in the hospital almost everyday for 8 weeks. All of this are being further worsen with a lousy self appointed leader that talks loud, stupid and have got no substance. In every status report, there is always emphasis on her being the team leader but no content on the group progress. I really wonder what are brains for?
Who is going to fucking care for who is the team leader, all the time. What’s the point of telling me that you are year 4, when the things you suggest and did, provided lotsa entertainment for my group of talking cock and singing song buddies, and mind you these people are already achieving beyond what school is all about. How about school competitions, which was being quoted so much, all I can say is that you better check the record before you even bullshit.

I will just let this pass and not ever work with these group of people again