This is my TWc group on our business option project.
We really had a great time working on this project, lotsa laughter and jokes...
Spell Laniru the other way...
Go on try it.
Monday, December 12, 2005
TWC Project The Laniru
This is my TWc group on our business option project.
We really had a great time working on this project, lotsa laughter and jokes...
Spell Laniru the other way...
Go on try it.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
This is my life, this is my family, this is me......
It’s the holidays again. Glad and sad at the same time, well for some it maybe a good break from school and other traveling to some where new. For Marcus, its time to work again. Things could not have been worse if not for me going to the wrong place.
“You have learned a lot”, that’s what my boss will always tell me, but then what I am learning is not what she is telling me, but what I would try to avoid when I am going to work in an actual working environment. I will never tell my subordinates in the future that I will dock your salary when u cannot do this, cannot do that. Come on lets face the truth of the society, everyone comes to work for money, or at least the minimum they can get to support their lifestyle. Take for example, the ah siao at my coffeeshop. He will go around asking for money and when he realized that he hav enough for today he will take a break and resume his non siao life again. Everyone work for money or a certain monetary reward, at the end of the day you still have got your stomach to look after. Otherwise, I would have gotten like few hundreds designers and developers working for me in Zeph. No one lives on mockery and encouragement. I understand that this might be something that you just say but don’t really mean it but again, how demoralizing it would be to listen to this on and off. Its not pleasant on the ears.
I believe that to be able to provide a certain level of service in anyone’s capacity would know that his or her work count towards the success of the firm. It’s understood that if you close down I lost my job, why should I want that to happened. Doesn’t make sense, does it. Moreover, you are working with people who are mature, sensible and educated enough to know all these. How disappointing it was.
The next sad thing
My dad, who have been unemployed for at least the past half year, or should I say on and off unemployed throughout the year, was going for his taxi license. He can’t speak English, can’t read English and can’t speak sense. The only thing I knew about my dad was his damm lousy attitude, unwillingness to learn and listen, and his very best was talking nonsense with his friends on the phone. Sounds really bad to be describing your father in such a way, but then I think its more than enough that I have given him when I still call him dad. Why!
My father, doesn’t fork out a single cent to the household, the house utilities? Not even that, and that have been for years. If you think that’s bad, he is also one that constantly seeks to disturb others or find problem.
Since young, Mayvis and I will have to tolerate our parents wrath and many other family feuds that existed before us. As we grew other things took a turn and we are subjected to more funny things such as our parents quarreling over tv channels, and this is no small squabble. It got so bad that the police came. Well the same thing happened again recently. Dad quarrel with mayvis and demanded that everyone have tp sleep at 11am. As he was confined to sleep in the living room, he want us to switch off the light and tv by 11am because he have to sleep. Do bear in mind that dad doesn’t work and have got nothing to do whole day long. In the end things got so bad that policeman uncle have to visit my house again.
Anyone have any business to do with the police do look for me, cos I am in such good terms with them, so good that they visit my family at least once a month.
Anyway, its really funny about the things that happened in my house, just that it was a bit embarrassing that day cos Alvin, Mayvis’ boyfriend was here with us that day.
The happier stuff
Well I finally gotten my x8 and its serving me comfortably. The only fall back is the lack of speed, perhaps this bike is still in its early stages of running in, lets hope it will be faster, otherwise we shall look into a little bit of modification to hasten it abit.
Tomorrow is Sunday, soccer day, let’s just looked forward to it where all the frustration cane be vented on it.
For now, lets go and listen to Don and Drew at www.donanddrew.com to distress for a while.
“You have learned a lot”, that’s what my boss will always tell me, but then what I am learning is not what she is telling me, but what I would try to avoid when I am going to work in an actual working environment. I will never tell my subordinates in the future that I will dock your salary when u cannot do this, cannot do that. Come on lets face the truth of the society, everyone comes to work for money, or at least the minimum they can get to support their lifestyle. Take for example, the ah siao at my coffeeshop. He will go around asking for money and when he realized that he hav enough for today he will take a break and resume his non siao life again. Everyone work for money or a certain monetary reward, at the end of the day you still have got your stomach to look after. Otherwise, I would have gotten like few hundreds designers and developers working for me in Zeph. No one lives on mockery and encouragement. I understand that this might be something that you just say but don’t really mean it but again, how demoralizing it would be to listen to this on and off. Its not pleasant on the ears.
I believe that to be able to provide a certain level of service in anyone’s capacity would know that his or her work count towards the success of the firm. It’s understood that if you close down I lost my job, why should I want that to happened. Doesn’t make sense, does it. Moreover, you are working with people who are mature, sensible and educated enough to know all these. How disappointing it was.
The next sad thing
My dad, who have been unemployed for at least the past half year, or should I say on and off unemployed throughout the year, was going for his taxi license. He can’t speak English, can’t read English and can’t speak sense. The only thing I knew about my dad was his damm lousy attitude, unwillingness to learn and listen, and his very best was talking nonsense with his friends on the phone. Sounds really bad to be describing your father in such a way, but then I think its more than enough that I have given him when I still call him dad. Why!
My father, doesn’t fork out a single cent to the household, the house utilities? Not even that, and that have been for years. If you think that’s bad, he is also one that constantly seeks to disturb others or find problem.
Since young, Mayvis and I will have to tolerate our parents wrath and many other family feuds that existed before us. As we grew other things took a turn and we are subjected to more funny things such as our parents quarreling over tv channels, and this is no small squabble. It got so bad that the police came. Well the same thing happened again recently. Dad quarrel with mayvis and demanded that everyone have tp sleep at 11am. As he was confined to sleep in the living room, he want us to switch off the light and tv by 11am because he have to sleep. Do bear in mind that dad doesn’t work and have got nothing to do whole day long. In the end things got so bad that policeman uncle have to visit my house again.
Anyone have any business to do with the police do look for me, cos I am in such good terms with them, so good that they visit my family at least once a month.
Anyway, its really funny about the things that happened in my house, just that it was a bit embarrassing that day cos Alvin, Mayvis’ boyfriend was here with us that day.
The happier stuff
Well I finally gotten my x8 and its serving me comfortably. The only fall back is the lack of speed, perhaps this bike is still in its early stages of running in, lets hope it will be faster, otherwise we shall look into a little bit of modification to hasten it abit.
Tomorrow is Sunday, soccer day, let’s just looked forward to it where all the frustration cane be vented on it.
For now, lets go and listen to Don and Drew at www.donanddrew.com to distress for a while.
Friday, December 02, 2005
My TOM TOM, my X8
Today is very likely to be the last day I am going to see my bike, the Phantom, also known as TA 200 or Tom Tom(what I call him)
Quite a bit of mixed feeling in me, its been with me for like 3-4 years, my very first bike. The love, hate and fear relationship is finally ending today, as I will be pushing it to the bike agent to trade in.
THE LOVE
My very first bike with lots of sentiments attached. I can still remember how I wished I could own him back then when I was in the midst of getting my license. Back then, I went to so many places to look for the cheapest price, but with the lack of experience and how bike shop work I ended up buying from the most expensive shop. How he never fail to get his daily attention and a holistic weekend shower. The premium petrol and engine oil, well he still gets it now, though I am not sure if the next owner will be giving him that.
THE HATE
When he doesn’t perform like his old self, when he start to give me problems like making scary gunshot sound but then we managed to solve it with the mechanics.
THE FEAR
People closer to me would know that I don’t encourage people to take up a bike and this is the same fear that I have for myself. Having seen my close friend’s brother gone in an accident, I fear for the same thing. Even worse, I don’t die but live the life wasted. This fear is especially excruciating when I think about my future and the many things that I have yet to achieve. My break through from the entanglement, I am afraid that I cannot get many things and will lose many things. Perhaps this is just human nature that they get depressed at the thought of losing something.
THE NEW LOVE
On the other hand, a new guy will be joining the family, he is X8, a scooter. Quite a big and sturdy fellow with lotsa storage space for my bags an laptop/s. He is a also a 200cc bike but this time round a automatic bike, meaning I just need to throttle and it will run. Should be a breeze riding it but then its pretty high for a short me.
Quite a bit of mixed feeling in me, its been with me for like 3-4 years, my very first bike. The love, hate and fear relationship is finally ending today, as I will be pushing it to the bike agent to trade in.
THE LOVE
My very first bike with lots of sentiments attached. I can still remember how I wished I could own him back then when I was in the midst of getting my license. Back then, I went to so many places to look for the cheapest price, but with the lack of experience and how bike shop work I ended up buying from the most expensive shop. How he never fail to get his daily attention and a holistic weekend shower. The premium petrol and engine oil, well he still gets it now, though I am not sure if the next owner will be giving him that.
THE HATE
When he doesn’t perform like his old self, when he start to give me problems like making scary gunshot sound but then we managed to solve it with the mechanics.
THE FEAR
People closer to me would know that I don’t encourage people to take up a bike and this is the same fear that I have for myself. Having seen my close friend’s brother gone in an accident, I fear for the same thing. Even worse, I don’t die but live the life wasted. This fear is especially excruciating when I think about my future and the many things that I have yet to achieve. My break through from the entanglement, I am afraid that I cannot get many things and will lose many things. Perhaps this is just human nature that they get depressed at the thought of losing something.
THE NEW LOVE
On the other hand, a new guy will be joining the family, he is X8, a scooter. Quite a big and sturdy fellow with lotsa storage space for my bags an laptop/s. He is a also a 200cc bike but this time round a automatic bike, meaning I just need to throttle and it will run. Should be a breeze riding it but then its pretty high for a short me.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Breaking the entanglement
Its 11.02am as shown on my com, when I am writing this blog. It seems like its been years since I have a laid back Saturday. Had breakfast with mummy in the morning, some grocery shopping and my second cup of coffee for the day is right next to me, beside my com, just like how it was in the past. The only change might be the colour of my com, and perhaps my waistline; have been putting on weight.
Just had a session of town gazing the bachelor cows yesterday, we roam the streets from the national library to the Funan, Shaw Towers, Liang Seah and Bugis. Its seems like it was yesterday where we just left secondary school. Memories was all that was left. Sometimes, how I wished that we could have pass the “O” levels all together, moving on to Polytechnic at the same time and perhaps even the same polytechnic. Enlist at the same time and perhaps going back to school together again. There seems to be a gap between us now and it seems like we cannot really hang out together like how it was in the past. Coupled with the development of Zeph Designers, work seems to be never ending, and problems; issues are multiplying faster than i can catch my breath. I sense a change in myself, perhaps not as victorious as before, but then I still don’t quite the feeling of losing. I still wanna excel but I have learned to understand that sometimes losing might bring you another level higher. Moving forward doesn’t mean succeeding all the time. I have also learned to laugh at my fault or mistake that are made, why, because when its done its done, there is nothing u can do to reverse it. Laughing over it might in some way lighten your mood, and prepare you better for the problem you have created. But then again, it is definitely better to have avoid that potential tripping stone right from the beginning.
What I really hope now is to complete my education as soon as possible and move on to my career. I have waited long enough to break the entanglements that have held me up for years. I really really really really hope to pass on tis few years smoothly, transiting into my career, working out my beautiful life.
I want what I wanted right from the very beginning.
My own apartment, my own car, career, tube amplifier, high end speakers, designer furniture , a big and exciting sport bike (for special occasion with my girlfriend) family and perhaps my own children, children bless with a happy family and no worries.
Breaking my entanglement………..
Just had a session of town gazing the bachelor cows yesterday, we roam the streets from the national library to the Funan, Shaw Towers, Liang Seah and Bugis. Its seems like it was yesterday where we just left secondary school. Memories was all that was left. Sometimes, how I wished that we could have pass the “O” levels all together, moving on to Polytechnic at the same time and perhaps even the same polytechnic. Enlist at the same time and perhaps going back to school together again. There seems to be a gap between us now and it seems like we cannot really hang out together like how it was in the past. Coupled with the development of Zeph Designers, work seems to be never ending, and problems; issues are multiplying faster than i can catch my breath. I sense a change in myself, perhaps not as victorious as before, but then I still don’t quite the feeling of losing. I still wanna excel but I have learned to understand that sometimes losing might bring you another level higher. Moving forward doesn’t mean succeeding all the time. I have also learned to laugh at my fault or mistake that are made, why, because when its done its done, there is nothing u can do to reverse it. Laughing over it might in some way lighten your mood, and prepare you better for the problem you have created. But then again, it is definitely better to have avoid that potential tripping stone right from the beginning.
What I really hope now is to complete my education as soon as possible and move on to my career. I have waited long enough to break the entanglements that have held me up for years. I really really really really hope to pass on tis few years smoothly, transiting into my career, working out my beautiful life.
I want what I wanted right from the very beginning.
My own apartment, my own car, career, tube amplifier, high end speakers, designer furniture , a big and exciting sport bike (for special occasion with my girlfriend) family and perhaps my own children, children bless with a happy family and no worries.
Breaking my entanglement………..
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Darlies
Its been a long and tiring week for me. Especially after sorting out the project work with my MFI project mates. All I can say this that that was an exceptional working experience, which I can do without in the future and will try by all means to avoid it. I don’t mind listening to a second opinion or even following the group in working on something, but I find it really difficult to lead yourself to jump off the cliff. This is the first time, I worked with a grp where the slides for presentation is only ready 15mins before the presentation, and during the class its still changing. Its not that everyone is busy or tied down by other work, but rather no one bothers to meet up. If u think I haven’t try to meet them up, then think again, an email and phonecall everyday asking for the assigned work but no one do them and no one bothers to meet. “Oh I am very busy with other work” or “I am in the hospital” or “I am sick” for a consecutive 8 weeks and to me that’s a record. I would apply for leave of absence if I have to be sick or in the hospital almost everyday for 8 weeks. All of this are being further worsen with a lousy self appointed leader that talks loud, stupid and have got no substance. In every status report, there is always emphasis on her being the team leader but no content on the group progress. I really wonder what are brains for?
Who is going to fucking care for who is the team leader, all the time. What’s the point of telling me that you are year 4, when the things you suggest and did, provided lotsa entertainment for my group of talking cock and singing song buddies, and mind you these people are already achieving beyond what school is all about. How about school competitions, which was being quoted so much, all I can say is that you better check the record before you even bullshit.
I will just let this pass and not ever work with these group of people again
Who is going to fucking care for who is the team leader, all the time. What’s the point of telling me that you are year 4, when the things you suggest and did, provided lotsa entertainment for my group of talking cock and singing song buddies, and mind you these people are already achieving beyond what school is all about. How about school competitions, which was being quoted so much, all I can say is that you better check the record before you even bullshit.
I will just let this pass and not ever work with these group of people again
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Let go
"Those who never let go, are never happy"
Was it too tight, or perhaps it wasn't,
what should I do, I only want me back.
Was it all wrong, maybe it wasn't
Perhaps it was but you have no choice now.
Maybe we can do something
sometimes we cannot....
I want to let go of my deep struggles, I want to be me....
Was it too tight, or perhaps it wasn't,
what should I do, I only want me back.
Was it all wrong, maybe it wasn't
Perhaps it was but you have no choice now.
Maybe we can do something
sometimes we cannot....
I want to let go of my deep struggles, I want to be me....
This girl...
I have been receiving a lot of questions about this girl who is very close to me. You know this particular long hair girl, that you see very close to me, playing with tummy while on my bike... She is none other then Mayvis Lim, my sister.
wonder why does people get mistaken......
don't we look alike? arghh maybe we shouldn't. (suddenly thought of what my soccer buddy said about his sister.
"Oh you have never see my sister, she looks exactly like me with a pair of boobs!"
Yucks.
Hahahhahhaaaa.. no offence Kumar if you happened to see this. (Anyway dont think you will mind, if you are seeing this where is my picture of Shuming's Chest hair :P)
wonder why does people get mistaken......
don't we look alike? arghh maybe we shouldn't. (suddenly thought of what my soccer buddy said about his sister.
"Oh you have never see my sister, she looks exactly like me with a pair of boobs!"
Yucks.
Hahahhahhaaaa.. no offence Kumar if you happened to see this. (Anyway dont think you will mind, if you are seeing this where is my picture of Shuming's Chest hair :P)
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Me, Granny, Mummy and Mayvis...
The 3 most important person in my life..
Granny, the one that always help us in time of need. she is also the fav character of all grandchildren...
How exciting it was back then, to follow her to the market every Sunday, cos she will buy toys for me.. hahahaaa..
Mummy,
I never understand why she always beat me in front of her friends and neighbours when its clearly that the children was in fault. The silly chinese way of showing you educate ur children.. oh mummy but i still love u as much ..
Mayvis
Someone whom i pinned a lot of hope on.. I want us to break free from the cycle... no more worries it shall be and comfort, we will have... Never again this sort of life...
Mayvis graduation back in July
This is Mayvis my sister and her graduation from Ngee Ann Poly back in July 2005
Well she is in SMU now...Graduation seems so far
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
I am finally down....
Days of loading myself is finally over and here I am feeling shitty siting in front of the screen blogging. I finally breakdown, guess its time for some maintenance on Myself. I am sick.
Yup and I promise that I will not be taking anymore things up to overload myself. Guess, today is wasted and so is tomorrow. Work is gonna pile up an tumble badly.
Anyway, finally the last performance for Carnaval is over, so relief. It was also the same time I felt sick yesterday, got this intense pain on the left side between my brows. Wonder whats wrong. Maybe I am gonna die soon.. haaahaha.. (Seems to be posting nonsense,.. must be the side effects of the medicine. ) To worsen the thing I went to the doctor twice yesterday and today and spent above $50 in total. What expensive maintenance it was.
Don’t know what’s wrong with me but something seems to be churning n my tummy, what an awful feeling. Feeling hungry but I cannot eat anything but soup. Hope this will be a blessing in disguise and help me lose some weight.
Can’t take it anymore think I am going to look for some food . . .
Yup and I promise that I will not be taking anymore things up to overload myself. Guess, today is wasted and so is tomorrow. Work is gonna pile up an tumble badly.
Anyway, finally the last performance for Carnaval is over, so relief. It was also the same time I felt sick yesterday, got this intense pain on the left side between my brows. Wonder whats wrong. Maybe I am gonna die soon.. haaahaha.. (Seems to be posting nonsense,.. must be the side effects of the medicine. ) To worsen the thing I went to the doctor twice yesterday and today and spent above $50 in total. What expensive maintenance it was.
Don’t know what’s wrong with me but something seems to be churning n my tummy, what an awful feeling. Feeling hungry but I cannot eat anything but soup. Hope this will be a blessing in disguise and help me lose some weight.
Can’t take it anymore think I am going to look for some food . . .
Monday, October 10, 2005
Violet, Nancy and me
This 2 ladies here are my mentors, Violet and Nancy, I have really learnt alot from them. Thank you
Khalil and me
The man in the board and the man next to me is Mr Khalil, the man running the Famous Islamic Restaurant.
My creations in the exhibition
The irony, this board was my favourite board and next to it was someone i don't really fancy. ahahahahaa..
Friday, September 30, 2005
Posting for the sake of posting
I think I am really pushing myself to the very limit, been busy almost everyday. I need a massage. Zeph have been doing really well and although I am really tired at times, but looking back at all the achievements, i thought that we were really impressive. For a young startup like us, and only a few months we are almost what some who have been around for years.
Was stuck today in school due to the rain. After having a quick bite at Pick and Bite, I went on to the benches at level 2 in school to check my mails and setup some new accounts. I was eally bored and fedup due to the weather thats delaying my work and decide to have some fun with my camera phone and photo and yup this is what i have gotten.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Very very late post
Its been almost 2 months I guess since I last blog. Many, many things have happened. The National Heritage Exhibition is finally over, after so much hassle and problems. My work are printed and displayed. It’s a really great sense of satisfaction, especially it something that I manage to achieve, its like a bench mark. I will be posting some photos of it later on.
Carnaval event with the SSS (Social Science Society) is also done, and I think it’s a really good event and there are many people, whom I would like to thank; ranging from all the members of SSS, especially Meiju, without her it definitely wouldn’t have happened. Also, those that performed during the events; Red Butterflies, Rios and the Zaibutsus and God Father. The Managers, Glen and Nick, who have really been very helpful and attentive to our needs.
Last but not least, my 2 very important colleague. I really appreciate every little effort that they have put in for Zeph Designers. Despite the recently loss due to the recent misprint, we are still moving on as a very strong startup. Zeph Designers managed to hit the first goal that I initially set out, and we are now moving on to hit the next.
I would also like to point out here to Shuming that every negative comment that I gave on your work were never pointed out at you. I have always regarded you as my brother, and everything I do was for the good of Zeph. Don’t be so dishearten and try to regain your old self. I believe that you are a very hardworking person, even your poly mates said so. I really hope you will be able to get back onto your feet and work harder for the things that you wanted.
By the time I am posting this blog, I am already in the midst of preparing the last performance for Carnaval. Life’s really tiring for me and it seems like sleeping lesser doesn’t seems to help at all, cos at the end its only 24 hrs I have.
However at this very moment I felt as if I have lost sight of another important thing, my academic results. I am somewhat slacking in my school work. Although several portion of my school works are submitted already. I guess its about time that I get more focus on my school work.
Carnaval event with the SSS (Social Science Society) is also done, and I think it’s a really good event and there are many people, whom I would like to thank; ranging from all the members of SSS, especially Meiju, without her it definitely wouldn’t have happened. Also, those that performed during the events; Red Butterflies, Rios and the Zaibutsus and God Father. The Managers, Glen and Nick, who have really been very helpful and attentive to our needs.
Last but not least, my 2 very important colleague. I really appreciate every little effort that they have put in for Zeph Designers. Despite the recently loss due to the recent misprint, we are still moving on as a very strong startup. Zeph Designers managed to hit the first goal that I initially set out, and we are now moving on to hit the next.
I would also like to point out here to Shuming that every negative comment that I gave on your work were never pointed out at you. I have always regarded you as my brother, and everything I do was for the good of Zeph. Don’t be so dishearten and try to regain your old self. I believe that you are a very hardworking person, even your poly mates said so. I really hope you will be able to get back onto your feet and work harder for the things that you wanted.
By the time I am posting this blog, I am already in the midst of preparing the last performance for Carnaval. Life’s really tiring for me and it seems like sleeping lesser doesn’t seems to help at all, cos at the end its only 24 hrs I have.
However at this very moment I felt as if I have lost sight of another important thing, my academic results. I am somewhat slacking in my school work. Although several portion of my school works are submitted already. I guess its about time that I get more focus on my school work.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
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